StillDiscoveringMe..

I’m a roller-coaster of emotions today and I am not really happy at the moment. I’m like a volcano ready to erupt..Today, I woke up and I had absolutely nothing to do or look forward to and that just killed me..Slept for a bit, woke up restless and willing to do something, called a friend..and all..In between all that, I had an encounter with someone who I actually admire for strange reasons and everytime I just try to talk to him, his friends just get all defensive and all..and I’m like “Hey,I am just being friendly”..but it really got me thinking maybe just maybe I’m just a tad bit too friendly..maybe I should just lie low or something..That shook me.

Too make matters worse on getting my friend’s house,her mum informed us that the market I was supposed to shop for school stuff tomorrow is closed. And I’m like how bad can today get. It really annoyed me..I just struggled to hold back my tears..Emotional me!…and it got me thinking that I actually could have gone earlier if only my friend had just squeezed out a little time to accompany me..I begged for practically 2 weeks..For someone who hates begging people, I tried..really did..If that market wasn’t so big..I probably would have gone alone. It just makes me feel disappointed and helpless…I’m quite sad..Wish I had cousins living around or something..

Then to top it off, my sisters decided to annoy me with their stubborness today…Today was just..Blehh!! I don’t have a terminal illness or something so my problems look unimportant but to me God knows they are important..I’m trying so hard to become someone I want to be and I’m just brought down every single time…

The emotions were on a roller-coaster today and I’m immensely pissed. I’ll try to salvage my last days at home and deal with this disappointments..

I’ve asked God for help already..

So another sleepless night except today,I’m disappointed and sad..And I might probably cry myself to sleep..

Best part of the day: I spoke to my dad..That always cheers me up and my bestiee called from school..